You know that song, "Word of God Speak?" Today I heard the word of God speak...
While listening to Beth Moore speak.
Then, a few hours later, I heard God speak...AGAIN, while working on my The Frazzled Female Bible study.
Then, a few minutes later, I heard God speak...AGAIN, while I was working on my new Beth Moore Bible study.
Let me explain.
For the past few weeks I've been struggling with making a decision about some opportunities that have come my way. I am generally not that great with decisions, especially when they involve the future and unsureness. I've been praying. And talking with a few friends. And praying. Before today...I felt like I had gotten nothing from God. No matter what was said, or what I talked to God about, I just didn't feel like I was being led in one direction or another. I felt like my heart was playing tug-of-war with my brain. This decision will will have an effect on my family, our finances, my child's future, and the amount of time I will have available. BIG DECISION, people. And yall know I get nervous about every little thing anyway.
This morning I was sitting in the first session of the ladies' Bible study at church, watching Beth Moore talk and preach and be funny. All of a sudden she starts talking about a specific section of a bullet point that reads, "Even when we're blind to the evidence, God works out everything in conformity with the purpose of His will." Then she said something along the lines of that God is working it out! He has the whole world in His hands and He has MY whole world in His hands. That's when I heard Him...
He told me, "I am working it out. Take the __________ opportunity." Why the blank? Because it isn't the right time yet to disclose that information.
When I first heard Him, I thought it was just my heart speaking. And it was...it was God speaking to my heart. For the first time in a long time, I heard God. I understood exactly what He was telling me. It wasn't if-fy.
When I left the Bible study, I honestly still couldn't really believe it. I called Anthony and told him what I felt like God was telling me and he said ok. Who was he to argue with God?
As I arrived back home and started thinking about it, Doubting Thomas came to visit me. You can just call him Satan. He was trying his best to fill my mind with all the "What if's?" But my sweet Savior had my back.
After Buggy went down for her nap, I got out my Bible study books and went out to the sunporch to my swing. My place of peace and quiet. I got out the first study because it is shorter...and I had two days of it to do because I *might* have opted for a nap yesterday instead. Idiot. Anyway, as I was reading through the passage I could literally feel God smiling at me and saying, "I am working it out." I'm not so sure if it is what the lesson was about, but God revealed to me that when I am seeking Him and not worried about my daily things, and I actually begin to listen, really listen, I will be able to hear Him. And because that's what I was doing....I heard Him. Loud and clear. Big flashing neon sign. He is working it out.
I was at peace.
After completing both days of that study, I moved on to my new study to spend a little time getting used to it and to really read and re-read the introduction. I was reading, and reflecting, and looking at the things I wrote down during the video and all of a sudden, I hear Him AGAIN. "Carrie, I am working it out." Seriously? Three times in one day? Wow.
Finally, I had to stop what I was doing and just flat out tell God, "I hear you. You're working it out. And now, I believe you. I'll make the arrangements. You are working it out." Even now, as I write this, I am taking a leap of faith by accepting this opportunity because I do not know what the future holds. BUT I KNOW WHO HOLDS MY FUTURE and I'm pretty confident that it will work out because He knows the plans He has for me...plans for me to prosper and not to fail.
I am at peace. And I'm excited. I can slowly see the desires of my heart unfolding before my eyes. What blessings I have had today! Praise the Lord and to Him be the glory. No matter what happens.